Samson Trammel's 6th Letter to Martin

Dear Martin,

I don't know how long I'll be able to write, but, you know it is all as -God- wills.

Domenick doesn't understand. He wants me to tell him who fired the shots--at least he's not dumb enough to think it's you. Why should I? Even if any court would believe, it is not for me to raise a hand against God's Scourge.

But thank you for trying to stop it. It's funny, isnt it? They really don't understand.

I mean, even the Scourge -- being a tool doesn't mean you under-stand- it all.

They really think I hurt you. Really. I suppose they thought I was doing -- what? Something sneaky when they came in? You needed to talk about it, and I can listen in ways no one else can. Or read. At least, now I can. I don't know for how long.

Is Vito really f*cking Shub-Niggurath? And -he- presumes to judge us? To judge -any- of my people? And all of this in the name of love? Really? Does he love anyone other than himself, do you think? I'm glad I hever had that to blind me. Most people who do use it as an excuse, I find. You don't. I like that. You're a selfish sh*t, and we both know that. But you don't pretend it's anything it isn't.

You wouldn't have had to kill anyone if they just looked a thing in the eye and dared to see it. All Jonathan Brooks had to do was admit he was wrong and ask for help. I'm not unreasonable Martin. You know I'm not. I would have helped him. Instead, he needed to be -Scourged-.

Sirikhan -- well, I'll admit she wasn't blind. Just a traitor. An ungrateful traitor! And she was -punished- by the -scourge-.

And Donovan. I am sorry we were interrupted. I don't know what he did that you killed him for me when he was working -with- you. Did he try to double cross you? I wouldn't put it past him.

God used you for this I think. So I don't think you should worry. It isn't a thing you -did-, you see. It was a Divine Purpose. You've always worked for God haven't you since you met me since you had God's Nectar?

All that you've done -- -all- of it, Martin, in your attempt to kill to kill God -- He tells me it's called Deicide, like homicide but for God.-- but for all that, you've carried out God's plan. You bring judgement down on them all -- all the ones that are found -wanting-. Savitree Sirikhan. Jonathan Brooks. Montgomery Donovan. You should do it for Captain Walker too. He betrayed me for -what-? For -money-! Heresy is less vile. Brooks's cofusion [sic] more understandable. Donovan -- well, it wasn't the money because he was -getting- the money we -know- that but that f*cker Walker I was -giving- him what he wanted. -Kill- him for me, Martin, won't you? Or get Joyce to or one of the others. You -know- the people who -betray- me end up -dead- in the end.

But there are others. Surprises, after all the betrayals. Sirikhan had people and they came to me. To me again I mean now that she's dead. They don't care about her or her heresy. So I -forgave- them.

And that is why you decided to give them -Salvation-. You gave them the means to make more Mouths more Nectar give me more always more Nectar Please Martin don't make it go away don't kill God!

God doesn't beg but I am begging on God's behalf. I don't even know if you -can- kill God. But don't. Please don't.

We can start over, -purged- of the heretics.

And you don't have to worry about -any- of us coming after you -- or him.

Husein told me about it, about what you did in Ethiopia. He said Luc tried to drug you and kidnap you and you got him arrested and beaten. So he's done penance hasn't he? He's been punished for what he did to you and rewarded for his loyalty and he knows to leave you -alone-. He'll do that. And your brother and Miss Avery's fiance though I think he thinks he isn't. He doesn't act like a fiance does he or maybe he acts exactly like one? But I only know what I am told because I didn't meet any of them and I won't. I mean of course if they come to see me I'll meet them but they wont they dont know me dont know I exist why should they? They never have to. -Never-!

So, you are -safe- from Luc Fauche and his meatbag with the beetle tattoo.

And I can be -- I am happy wih my God and the Nectar. Like you said I am not bothering anyone except maybe my lawyer and he is paid enough for that.

I can -be- happy, with my broken bones, without anything but Nectar. But leave me only that and God, I beg you please Martin. Leave me only that!

I don't even care that you and Joyce don't see it's the Man In Black. Maybe -she's- lying, maybe so but I think you believe it. I need to hear you say it to know but it doesn't matter. You don't believe. Not any more if you ever did. It's okay. You don't -have- to believe. Just please don't kill God whoever you think He is.

You don't have to see me again but I'd like it if you did come to see me even if we are enemies. I can't talk to Domenick my shark I mean my lawyer because he doesnt understand things and thinks I'm crazy.

He wants to try to get me off because of that. I'll leave him to it if he thinks he can but I think I you know crazy isnt so simple is it? There were four of us when you visited. You tell me, Martin -- who of us did -you- consider crazy? Really?

I'd like to hear all about what you've done -- the things you can tell me now that they are over. Ethiopia. Bangkok and Mexico City. And Malta. And, what happens now when it's over -- but please don't let it all end. I'd rather be consumed alive by it than live in a world without God without Nectar without God Nectar God please Martin I'm begging you don't let that happen!